Confused? Does it Matter?

Sometimes we don't know what to do, think, or say. But what does it matter?

We're not the first to be confused. I am confused all the time. Deep thought requires time. Time requires resources. Resources require opportunity. Opportunity requires privilege (in many cases). And privileges are biased!

But what does it matter?

They say it's the young that are confused, but by the time you find out who you are, you're old. So is ignorance bliss? I think so. Does this mean that I'm not ignorant...or should be? do I have the time for this deep thought? Do I have the resources? Or the opportunity? What about the privilege?

I do.

So I must be favored, but by whom? God? But why me...the infamous question. Would I even like to find out, or just be ignorant? But I don't want to be, I think.

Ha, yeah...I'm confused. But does it matter?

Who's Watching Me?

Who's watching me? I know I watch everyone else. In fact, I watch everyone to see if they're watching me!

Most times, however, I seem to be the only one...the only one who's stepping out of the automated reality where people go about their business without pausing and thinking. But I can't be the only one, right? Well, maybe I am. Maybe I'm the only one who's doing it in public. Maybe everyone else sits back and thinks mainly in private. Even now...writing...I pause momentarily to see if someone is watching...but they're not.

Ha! Maybe I just miss them and they look away when I look up...sly dogs! Maybe it's the proverbial effect. If I don't see them watching, then are they? Honestly, I don't think so. I do think I'm the only one watching, or maybe one day I'll catch someone looking and ask them if they were watching....pausing...and thinking.

Yeah, but until then I'll just continue watching and wondering...Who's watching me!?